A week before yesterday, on Friday, AACM’s large group was in the evening. It was a night of stations and prayer, just some alone time with God. I went through the stations hoping that God will comfort me, speak something to me, but honestly, I didn’t get much out of it. Then there was the last station, which talked about pride. I went through it, and it was a good reminder about how sometimes my pride and will get in the way of God’s will and glory. After this station, I went up to the roof just to pray and be with God.
Then on the roof, I asked God, should I join AACM or Epic? And this thought just kept surfacing in my head. Join Epic. Join Epic. Join Epic. Over and over again. So that’s how it happened. I believe God was simply telling me. So I decided to stick with it.
After thinking about it, I can’t think of many logical reasons. Epic does focus a lot more on outreach, which I decided over summer to be my main goal in college. I also think that if I joined AACM, pride issues would surface, especially if I started serving.
That Friday, I had discipleship with Steven and Daniel before large group. We went over God’s glory. Basically, God does things for His own glory, and He will give His glory to none other. Everything He does, from creating us to saving us is for Himself. He doesn’t save us for us, He saves us so that we can know His glory.
God’s will is so much greater than mine. It’s infinitely greater. God will get His way. I kept thinking about this that Friday night. Then I started thinking about how I wanted to join AACM to serve and to invest in all these people. Then I realized that by thinking this, I was also thinking that it was my job to invest in them, that if I don’t do it, then it wouldn’t happen. Which is absolutely ridiculous.
So what am I thinking about AACM as I join Epic? Yes, there are plenty of people in AACM that I want to get to know and invest in, but I think God wants me to trust Him with them. I don’t think it’s my job. Maybe there are a couple guys that God will put in my way to use me. But it’s God’s work, not mine. I’m confident that He has grand plans for AACM.
Nothing can stop God from saving His elect. That’s not an excuse for me not to be proactive. But it’s a comfort to me, knowing that it is nothing I do, and everything God does.
